326: what started out as random ended up reflective

Ok, so I am hanging out on the couch at the shop on this sweltering Saturday. Everyone else is at the beach, apparently, because they sure aren't here!

Hmm, tap...tap.taptap tap....

So, hows-about I shower you with a little random?

Oh, yum. Trader Joe's dark chocolate-covered pretzels:

Dangerous, you can even tell by how they look like skulls!

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Got a few questions about these bracelets from the last post: (And my engagement ring is on the wrong finger because I still need to get it sized!)

I do have some left, and they are $18. If you nag me, you could probably get me to sell them to non-locals. I am just the worst about getting stuff out in a timely way, which is why I haven't put anything for sale online yet. I know, I should just do it. Now that I am at the shop 7 days a week, it would be easier to get into a routine of shipping stuff out.

The sayings I have left are : "Don't Settle For Less", "Redefine The Impossible" and "Discover. Explore. Dream."

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 A couple of months ago, my pal (new)Cindy and I were guests on her husband's radio show.

Sean has an awesome indie music program on WOMR called My Little Corner Of The World.  You can listen online every Wednesday morning from 6-9 am (EST). I had a blast being on the air, once I warmed up a bit. I got a bit sassy and silly. Shocking.

Loved the paint-splashed metal grate outside of the studio door:

And this little composition at the bottom of the steps:

I'll probably do the show again in the fall-- I'll be sure to let you know when so you can listen in.

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I'm turning 35 next Sunday! But it's going to be  4th of July weekend on The Cape, which means I'll pretty much just be at the shop! I hope to rustle up a bit of fun in the evening, though.

I totally didn't mean to get into this now but, as an introspective person, I can't help but reflect on the last year now that I'm thinking about my b-day.

What a year! (links take you to the posts) My first fabric line came out, I taped a tv show, I decided to open my little gift shop, my studio was featured in a national magazine (and got the cover!), I got engaged and I am writing a book! Dang!

And, as you know, there have been plenty of hard times underneath and on top of all of that amazing stuff. My usual struggle with depression, and  my brother's suicide in February...

You know how open I am here, but even beyond what I've shared with you, I have had a devastating personal loss in the last year, as well as 2  brutal professional disappointments in the last few months.  I have officially been whammied.  I am feeling pretty ok most of the time, but the losses of the last year do break my heart every day.

I am so so grateful  for and moved by all of your love and support. Every comment or email you send me is like a little bit of nourishment. I take it in and it helps me so much.

I am so lucky and happy to be engaged to my true love. He is a dream come true, a salt-of-the-earth kind of guy who makes me laugh every day.

I am  proud of myself for making it a point to develop new supportive friendships in 2009. I now have a new circle of wonderful women (local, even!) that I am in touch with all the time: people who value me, make time to see me, want and appreciate what I have to offer. And I have a handful of amazing friendships that I've had for years, that have endured and grown stronger.

>sigh<

In the next year, I will continue to heal  from the losses and grow these gorgeous friendships. I will overcome my professional disappointments, finish my book, and put out another fabric line.

And someday, I'll even get married. 

xoxoxoxo

so much love to you. yes, you.

m